NExt WEek is SCHool !!

Do I sound excited. Im telling you, I am not at all excited.

Maybe I should be, to see how my "masterpiece" will work out. But looking at prospects, I don't think that things are too optimistic. Maybe I should just hope that things do not go chaotic. Mr Ng still hasn't gave any reply yet. Is his silence a consent? I think he is very busy.

Today, a pair of twins were born. But not on this year haha. Anyway, today was also the fateful day I had to extract one tooth. Oh well, just hope that it will bring about improvements. Meanwhile... haha...

Schoolwork still on-going. It seems that Biology is ok after all. But I still don't like doing Bio. Trying to complete this Bio paper and all will be good after today! Struggling to complete it cos its just too.... Oh well. Speaking of which, my NYAA is still not done yet.... Haiz, this few days bah, this few days.

Even during the holidays, I get to learn some lessons as well eh... My father told me there's a website with all the old names of Singapore locations... Outdated definitely, but I guess its possible to create new ones ourself.... Its like there used to unique 16 floor HDB flats at Commonwealth, so its called Chap lak Lau, hokkien for Sixteen floors. So, if we reinvent it, then Tanjong Pagar-Contonment (Duxton) can be called Gor Chap Lau, hokkien for 50 floors! But I understand that these names came out because the people then weren't very educated. If it were us, Duxton Pinnacle would be just simple... But I know some who call it things like tallest HDB, Tanjong Pagar tall HDB etc... Interesting indeed lah, got Pek Kio (Rangoon/Owen), Aw Kio (Balestier), Ang Sah Li (Serangoon Gardens). Many more, if interested can just google it, its one of the wordpresses (I think the only wordpress).

Ok, its time to call my mother and do other stuff. I hope I can pull through Bio Paper tonight.

JENSON BUTTON'S FIRST VICTORY THIS YEAR!!

Ok, just to be surprised. This morning woke up. Missed the victory news for CNA but saw that hamilton crashed. Oh dear.

So it was CNBC for 1 hour, and decided to got back to CNA to try my luck. Got a 3-second shock when I saw jenson button!!!!!

Thought it would be a sad case for him but apparently he won! Congratulations! Now I would have tried to watch ytd hahaha. But apparently, luck is always a must have in grand prix races somehow this year.

Middle of Holidays.

Gosh, the middle of the holidays has passed. But my homework is not even halfway done yet. If possible, I aim to complete my work this week, and probably do some home admin matters too.

Canadian Grand Prix really seems boring to me. Im going to sleep soon, not staying up for it.

I don't understand why some people have to resort to stealing certain things sometimes. Well, I dunno what kind of karma this is but oh well, I will not steal. But this person really seems so professional. I don't want to call the police, but if so is it right to let him continue his ways if he has done a lot of harm. No time to think about it.

More importantly, Im just feeling sad over the lost of my phone. It was a really good phone. Back in 08, when I first saw it online, I knew that this was it. 一见钟情？haha not really lah. But yea, I really like the exterior, the features, and the interior system. After that, I never cared for any other phone. Though there were some minor problems with the phone, after 1 year of endurance, I managed to clear all the problems and was enjoying my daily life with it so much. So much that I realised its already 2 years and 2 months since I started using it. As many always say, 欢乐的时光总是过的那么快。我万万也没有想到，竟然要用这样的方式，会在这样的场合，和它永远的道别。

Sometimes I really do wonder why we exist for a fact. Is it just that we learn our lessons, and live our lives happy or sad, creating trouble for some and making others happy, but most importantly, very likely not impacting most of the people. And after that we just leave the world, most of us quietly. Whats the point of life if it is just full of hatred, terror, fear, jealousy?

I try my best not to hate anyone. I believe from the bottom of the heart I dont. In fact, I do not like some people. But why should I hate them? They are still people. Sometimes, its really easy to take every single person around you as a nice, kind-hearted soul. Just ignore all that negative sides of the human heart for a moment and realise the beauty of each individual. Its really wonderful.

But well, we the humans are created to be emotioned. We cannot ignore what we feel and think. Sadly, such negative sides exist in diversity and variety. Yes, you cannot help to think that someone does not like you, but have you ever felt the pain of simply trying to be nice to everyone, even though it seems to you that the person does not like you? We try our best to be perfect, but is it really possible? This vicious cycle would continue forever, because there was just someone who had started it.

I guess, its really amazing in a way. I can not like that person but apparently keep feeling that the person is inclinging towards me. I like that person but keeps feeling that the person tries to avoid me, somehow not really liking me. Sometimes, we do get the courage to ask. But what if people do not speak from the bottom of their hearts, afraid that they might hurt others. Do we want the truth or do want protection. I really don't know. But sometimes, I guess our doubt of others would hurt each other more. But we just cannot reject what we feel.

I guess enough is said for tonight, I just hope when I wake up tomorrow, I can continue towards the important task to fulfill now: Complete my work.
I do have many other things to do, like cleaning up the house, sorting my elections articles, practice chinese and read english, analyse finances. Time has been my good friend, but I have never treated it well.

If possible, I'd rather not think about it.

Middle of holidays, but work not is not half. Really need to buck up. Im picking up speed, but I guess a little too slowly. A little bored, so decided to pen down some thoughts. Ok, type, as Hanker would say.

My life this year has been extraordinare. It will forever be different from that of my lives in other years, just like how each year is unique to me. Many things have happened this year. In terms of many aspects, of which some seen a positive change, and others a negative one. But I do believe that no matter what happens, it will benefit me in the end, somehow.

It seems that there are people reading, so I think I do not want to type anymore on more personal matters. Anyway, Im a little lost and I can't really put it in words.

Went for an LTA event, the DTL2 Tunnelling Commencement. Got a first-hand experience of chatting with newly appointed Transport Minister Lui Tuck Yew. He really seems to be different, and trying his best to do his job well. So far so good, barely any thing I have disagreed with that he has mentioned. On another note, I want to thank my good friends that have accompanied me these years, John, Jeremy, Jun You and more. Especially John, I think we have actually surpassed that of just squadmates, fellow enthusiasts and even schoolmates, but really close friends, which is due to also our close personality.

I guess I shall end here for now.

Close to one week into holidays.... GAH

Wow, time passes so fast. Its close to one week.

I just realised there isn't much time left, comparing the time to things to do ratio. Oh dear!
For the past one week, it started out with NP stuff. Then pushed myself to complete my testimonial. Did some maths and Chinese, read a bit of Geography. Gosh, I need to change my attitude towards Science, if not Im not going to improve.

I have not really done Mei Ri Yi Ju, I think for 2-3 days. Looks like Im going to have a hard time, can only talk about what happened in 《金枕头》 haah. I finally completed it, after 3, close to 4 days of continuous watching. Hopefully I can save my eyesight. My mum left me 《三国演义》 before going, and its the drama serial version, so I guess for this one, I will restrict myself and not hurt my eyes. Seeing all the weird drama techniques in 1995, the weird looking places, faces; Maybe not weird, but unfamiliar and probably retro haha, really made me think about certain things. But its way too long-winded!!!!

Just 2 days ago, more people have left for the country, I hope for a good cause. Thinking about that, I do hope that I have a chance to go on a trip with John... But, whats yours will be yours, so if it really doesn't come, I guess I will look for an alternative. What comes knocking on my door, I will consider it.

Other than homework, I still have assessment books. Reading of syllabus is another important part for this holiday's schedule, and I also need to sort out certain things, for example, the newspaper collections for this election. This one cannot wait till December. Others, probably could, such as photo collections and some personal matters.

Shall sign off for now...

There's something wrong with me.

I've had enough of doing that. I really want to stop already. Ive had enough of all that other nonsense. I want to settle down now. Its time to stop this. But it supposedly isnt the right time to start that. How I wish such things don't bother me so much. As much as I have a dream, I do hope for some peace and quiet to let me concentrate on other things.

I purposely chose for it to be that way because I am afraid of the other thing happening. I do not want to disturb you, nor do I think I need disturbance. Its really hard to know you inside out, because we seem to be the same, people who hide our hard feelings from others, showing our happiness most of the time. If you feel that I don't really shower you with proper care, it is likely because I am afriad of bringing it to another level. I believe you wont bring it far, but I want to play safe.

This feeling is extreme. Marvellous and painful.

I never thought this was how it would come. I cannot even be sure if it really is what I think it is.

I swear it is different this time. It is different from all the other times. Maybe it is because of how we had addressed each other? But that does not change much... Or does it.

I can feel it, and it is incredible. its so heartwarming, heartfelt, but yet cannot be described. It is just so wonderful, like I am on the top of the world, looking down on creation, still searching for an explanation I can't find.

But its too tortorous for more. I really do not know if you find me naggy, irritating or whatsoever. Furthermore we are quite different. Being friends would be nice, but I can't read your mind. Because I don't want to hurt you, I have to control myself.

Maybe I should just give it all up, and look foward? Should I? Spare me the agony, I am looking for happiness.

My best table partner in years. Breakthrough for elections. Hectic so far...

This is a tribute to by far, one of my best table partners. Thank you so much, may you succeed and gain happiness in your future endeavours!

Its really nice to talk to you when there is a need, and your laughter justs cheers me up. You have helped me quite a bit as well, no doubt there was some "piak"-ing, but I apologise for shouting at you at times or just not being myself. I couldn't let my results get over me. Nonetheless, you still remained open for me to talk. The feeling... This is beyond words....

On another note, slightly sadly: I realise that Ms Pear and us were brought together by fate. But unfortunately, we do not have the affinity of spending time together... Thats why I joked more, since there may not be that chance again. Oh well.

And as there are sad times, would happy times come. Parliamentary general elections is now over, with a breakthrough by the WP Aljunied Team. Congrats to them, sadly I cant get served by you. At the same time, Mr Yaw managed to get Hougang into even higher spirits.

However, veteran Mr Chiam See Tong 满盘皆输, bidding goodbye to Potong Pasir and also not conquering the neighbouring Bishan-Toa Payoh. His team, like Mr Low's team, is made up of many good members as well, but I guess the spillover was not strong enough and furthermore, MOE was there. But well, WP has two famous ones, Low and Lim, with Chen and Pritam it made it better. Mr Chiam had all the others as new , or not very famous candidates, though I look very highly of Mr Benjamin Pwee. The legacy of Mr Chiam has ended, but will Mr Pwee arise? Hope so.

Many things have happened this election, which I believe not many people will read just as I do not want to type, but share only with my friends that share this common interest. On another note, I am glad to be able to take a break after a hectic semester. Yes, I won't be able to rest for long since I have decided I have to revive my GPA back to its original state on the account that I am going to get a very uncommon number this semester. But hope this short rest will be able to spur me on and do better.

I want to thank those people who have been of great help to me throughout this period, and I am glad I have improved in quite a number of aspects. They may not read it here, but I believe that they will get repaid somehow, somewhat and somewhere. But to me, helping others is repaid through the joy and happiness one has after you have helped him. But in controversy, I seemed to have caused some inconvenience and unhappiness when I helped some people recently. I am really sorry, if you are reading this.

Life, has to go on. The future seems blurry, may I find it soon.