This feeling is extreme. Marvellous and painful.

I never thought this was how it would come. I cannot even be sure if it really is what I think it is.

I swear it is different this time. It is different from all the other times. Maybe it is because of how we had addressed each other? But that does not change much... Or does it.

I can feel it, and it is incredible. its so heartwarming, heartfelt, but yet cannot be described. It is just so wonderful, like I am on the top of the world, looking down on creation, still searching for an explanation I can't find.

But its too tortorous for more. I really do not know if you find me naggy, irritating or whatsoever. Furthermore we are quite different. Being friends would be nice, but I can't read your mind. Because I don't want to hurt you, I have to control myself.

Maybe I should just give it all up, and look foward? Should I? Spare me the agony, I am looking for happiness.